Tamira

First this morning, i weighed myself and I was 217.1 lbs from 220.9 on Sunday.  I’m not counting a 3.8lb weight loss until Sunday when it will be official, but it will sure make sticking to my plan at the Halloween Party today SO much easier!

Secondly, they announced our new benefits for next year this morning and they are adding discounts for weight loss programs.  This is the first time I’ve worked at a company that has even attempted to help out with weight loss.  No offense to anyone who needs it, but I get frustrated whenever smoking cessation medication is covered and weight loss meds are not.  I can’t say which one is more hazardous to your health, but they are both VERY serious addiction problems and deserve at least equal attention.  Of course, they have not announced what the discounts will be and in what capacity, but I’m glad that they are at least taking the step forward.

Halloween was a challenge last year, but this year will be much easier for me.  My daughter went to a Halloween carnival on Saturday and collected plenty of candy.  Since I raided most of it, I’m over the sugar rush.  And since I officially got back on track yesterday, it doesn’t count(yeah, right)!  So, now that I have it out of my system, I have no desire for the treats tomorrow.  There is still plentyin her pumpkin and I havent been tempted since Saturday.  This will make tomorrow a LOT easier.  My next “challenge” will be my company Halloween lunch.  I just have to remember all of the tools I learned last time around and divide my plate up into 1/2 salad, 1/4 fruit, and 1/4 whatever I want.  Doing this in the past has helped me tremendously.  Since I eat everything in the order I listed above, by the time I get to the “bad” food, I’m already full of the good stuff and don’t really eat it.  Wish me luck!

Well, I’ve conquered two of my bigget problems today.  I haven’t had my daily cup(s) of coffee and I didnt grab any of the goodies leftover from a meeting.  The past few months, I’ve been doing both with no consider of the consequences.  Now that the consequences are slapping me in the face, I have no choice.  I do mis smy coffee, but I miss ME even more.  I know this will be a daily thing, but I’m willing to recommit myself to this every single morning.  It’s great to be back and have a forum to get things out.  Even with no comments, I feel better just being able to get things off of my chest.

Hello all,

I am back and 18 pounds heavier than when I started almost 2 years ago.  I lost 78lbs last year and went from an 18/20 to an 8 in 11 months.  The problem was that I have been heavy for the past 9 years now and my brain could not reconcile the image being seen in the mirror.  As much as people were telling me how great I looked, i coudn’t see it.  I KNEW my clothes were a lot smaller (and cheaper), but I just couldn’t see the difference.  Now that have put almost 90lbs back on, I can see the difference.  Not only can I see it, but I can feel it.  My mobility has significantly decreased, which is something that i am not accustomed to dealing with.  I know my emotional health played a bit part of my relapse, but all I can do is deal with that as well as I can and know that my emotional health affects every aspect of my life and health overall.

This time, aside from you guys, this will be a private journey.  I think I added a lot of pressure to myself when everyone saw me losing weight here at work and were asking me for diet advice and weight loss tips, when for the most part I was still winging it myself.  I’ve always loved to eat, even when I was very thin, but I have to learn (again) that indulgences every once in a while is okay, but I can no longer take the easy road in battling this demon.