My journey…
Hello all,
I am back and 18 pounds heavier than when I started almost 2 years ago. I lost 78lbs last year and went from an 18/20 to an 8 in 11 months. The problem was that I have been heavy for the past 9 years now and my brain could not reconcile the image being seen in the mirror. As much as people were telling me how great I looked, i coudn’t see it. I KNEW my clothes were a lot smaller (and cheaper), but I just couldn’t see the difference. Now that have put almost 90lbs back on, I can see the difference. Not only can I see it, but I can feel it. My mobility has significantly decreased, which is something that i am not accustomed to dealing with. I know my emotional health played a bit part of my relapse, but all I can do is deal with that as well as I can and know that my emotional health affects every aspect of my life and health overall.
This time, aside from you guys, this will be a private journey. I think I added a lot of pressure to myself when everyone saw me losing weight here at work and were asking me for diet advice and weight loss tips, when for the most part I was still winging it myself. I’ve always loved to eat, even when I was very thin, but I have to learn (again) that indulgences every once in a while is okay, but I can no longer take the easy road in battling this demon.
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Welcome back. I’m sorry that it took you losing your progress to regain your control. You’ve done it once and you can do it again. We’ll help you any way we can!! Be strong!
You can do this. You have done it before- and you are going to do great this time. Take a deep breath and do it for your self. It will all work out. Good luck
Welcome back Tamira. We all need a little more motivation and we will try to keep you motivated. It is up to you and you will succeed a second time around. Keep your head up!
I can relate to you more then you know…And for you to come out here and admit it, well…That shows you are committed to KEEP TRYING…As long as we keep trying, we are SUCCESSFUL…
I can so relate to this blog. It is hard to change the way we think about and see ourselves. I still struggle with my old habits and sometimes they win. We can only take it one day at a time. Good luck to you and welcome back!